update again!

i stopped blog-whoring.
no net at home. no time to rant.
no things to rant abt mainly.
and no nothing.
nothing new to blog abt and weigh the werld dwn with.

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got sooooo many freaking assignmts.
isnt that why pple CHOOSE MED??
cos we only have like, veryyyyy few exams
and close-to-zilch ass-ignments?
wellllllllllll well.
buggered ehs.

i read your blog.
and heres a personal reflection on it.

im nt sure who the 'you' is.
it could be her.
it could be otherwise.
and i knw i havent always been there.
and i wish i was. but i cant change what you dont or do feel.
i dont knw what else to say,
but i miss you lotsaaaaaaaaaaaa
and i keep ranting on abt other guys and stuff but you knw i got your back.
righttt? ))))))))))))))))))):

my life's a boring mess.
same shit diff day.

ooooooooh.
this whole time ive been in melb,
ive been missing someone.
someone i tink you'll never guess.
and you reading this now,
i wish you knew.

if you could only see the way she loved me.
baby you will understand.
why i feel this way abt our love and what i must do.

K. is gorgeousssssssssssly sweet
simply the best.
if not cos' of social norms and the stigma you get for being... well... DIFFERENT
frm the rest,
i wld be there now. (or you'll be here)
i dont usually say it out loud
but i see your picture on my wall everyday
and i keep missing those IJ days.
those...
REALLY REALLY sweet days.

i rembr every sec of it all.
frm the 'walking past my class' to get to yours
and i'll skip a beat (literally)
frm the long john days.
ohhh the oil. (hah) and hw i'll convince you that its worth the weight. (:
frm the mall opp novena sq (shit i forgot the name of the place)
to the Bakerz Inn.
OH MAN i loved you most.

i wish we werent that far apart.
even now. we barely talk.
and we barely see each other.
you prolly hate my guts and im prolly too emotionless to show it.
but i miss chu!
and i wish you well.
i really really really doooooooooooooooooooooo sweetie.

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seems weird nw that im 19 and living it up in melb.
minding my own business
and staying out of sg frens' ones.
and to recall all i was before
cant believe i went out with some pple.
and i didnt with some others
how i misunderstood em
or tried to.
cant believe life is only this good.
(could it get any worse? seriously??)

im over boys.
theres this one guy called Br.he's like OVERLY OBSESSED
with god knws whatttt part of me.
he's reallyyyyyyy freaky
and i cant seem to get him off my back.
he's like planning a whole life out of me.
WITH ME.now THATS FREAKY.
i dont knw how else to get rid of him.
i literally yell and chuck the biggest fit but he NEVER goes away.
god must be teasing me.

oh yes a small shoutout to lionel:
hey i'll send you the money for the flowers.
thanks for that. my mom loved it.
thanks ian for helping to get it too! lovelove cussie!