self-preservation/.

when youre in depression,everything seems colder.
even the food you cook and effort spent cooking it.
No.... its not the weather. that too.
but that doesnt cause depression,it just coincidentally configures itself to suit the mood.

the mood of emptiness.

revelations revelations revelations.
never too late to shake up your mind.
and never too early to alarm you.

i can only say, winter is coming.

and so are you.

im not witty enuf to tell you what im feeling in a condescending way i would intend to,
usually.
but im not that scared.
its 2 weeks to an osce.
and no examinations attempted.
i am not sad.noooo. im not.
im jst overwhelmed with my ineffectuality.
of being the real chirpy/retarded/exaggerative me anymore.

they call it, self-preservation for a reason.
i'll keep myself for later.