you.

you will never know the true guilt of leaving a love behind,
and indeniably cry oneself to sleep each night,
until that one love you wanted so bad
comes back.
only this time,
you're with someone else.

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V my love came over at 9am today
to get me maccas for breakie.
he knows my fav- hotcakes. (well i'd prefer big breakfast but they dont have it here.)
and when he saw D's whole bunch of flowers on my table,
i saw him die inside.
he zoned out, as if to mask any form of despair,
and took out a big box of LINDT (yes thats another of my fav) with a lil note.
he left it on my table,
and with a tight hug, filled with regret and pain altho nth was spoken,
he walked out.
and i didnt get a single chance to tell him how i wish he hadnt been the one to witness how much D has done for me,
and in contrast,
how little V has even tried to do for me.

it hits you once you know its really over
and how, no matter what you do or say,
nth seems to rewind and replay.

i wish you didnt have to see all this V,
i wish i was the one who told you about this.
sometimes i try to
but you knw what effect you have on me.
and when it comes to leaving you,
even if my words say it all,
my heart's still gonna be here. for you.