i deserve to be much happier.

- hadi is the one in the front right. (:

- ali, bahar (his wife), dim, me, natalie, BRETT. hehe.

yday's party at michelangelo was ALRIGHT.
(i wldnt lie and say fantastic. cos it really wasnt for me)
the place was ok. food was slightly above average. (altho i cld name you 876543 better ones)
here are some pics.
i knw, its like pathetic 3. the rest are all dim's frens.
anddd...
mayb this wld mk u understnad better why i didnt hav as much fun as i shld hv-
theres only this ONE fuckin ugly pic of us.
and guess what,
its not JST the two of us.
its with other random frens of his.

so mayb this sums up quite clearly how the rest of the night went-
me alone in some randomly sick corner. (and by sick, i dnt mean awesome)
entertaining the random outcasts of various cliques formed ard the tables.
altho the only consolation that i had,
was that i saw my eyecandy! - Brett. -sizzles-
andddd my cute cute bud (dim's gdfren)- Hadi.
i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee that boy!
he's soooo cute. and his 21st is on 9th dec. one day before i leave fr spore.

ugh SUDDENLY i cant wait to go back to spore.
honestly, i wish i cld spend xmas w my family in melb.
but its impossible to teleport 8974048 members here.
soooo i gtg back.
but nw (mayb due to yday's SHIT day for me)
i wanna run home.
and see ppl i miss.
pple like linn stef yang they all.
pple like lionel, and cussies.
pple like will, YQ!, flor and Keith (yes him.)
andd pple like meg, marilyn my mei.
church ppl like josh gerk elmo, ETC ETC.
ppl i can talk to and NOT GET IGNORED-
like anthony. (ohhh tht boy!)
everyone i deserve to be happy with.
not someone who randomly has a shout out for me
but other times,
expects me to FOLLOW ard, helping him carry this, do that.
talk to him, entertain her,
force a smile, pose a bitch.

i think.
i think i deserve to be much happier than i am now.
currently,
im dwelling in self-pity and self- shitness equivalent- not to dirt- but to the PLANKTON living in them.
erghhh.

fuck those who's been living the life.
i wanna go home.