holllllyyyyyyyyy *toot*

sighhhhhh.
):
did a bit of studying todayyy.
SHIT!
im NOT gonna finish my work in time.
and i hope i do.
FUCK.

(ok keep it calm, rach)

ive stopped nannying.
for a while.
cos' im gonna STUDY my bum off. (omg i sound like j.)
yes yes
nerd me! (:

i need to move hse and its frustratinggggggg.
i wanna move! into malvern or some shit.
FUCK.
i need to get so much done.
house, bills, work, study, MOVE. ETC. ):

im sad.
im lonely again. AGAIN.
fuckkkk.

where is dimmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
im over his stupid gift thats never gonna show up ):
and those stupid bills that are never gonna pay itself.
im over this stupid face with blemishes and ONLY imperfections.
and that dry, streaked shit hair that breaks with each brush.
IM OVER THIS HOLE.
and all the time spent in waiting, wasting, and pain.
I WANNA go home. to my lovelyyyyy sistas n family.
i wanna be a dr. (is that reallyyyyyy so hard?)
yarrggh.

and then maybe i'll blow away.