-=sighs=-

y did u ALL lie bout staying here with me?
din u say it'll b better after 2 weeks or a month?
it isnt!!
u liars.
pls go confession.

i hate this shit.
nt cus im homesick.
IM NOT.
lol. but im pissed/ pls listen.
thk u very much.

=( you took away all my chances to love.
you make love look so easy.
but you take it all away again.
you chitted my feelings.
you b*tch.

first it was J.
den it was A.
den it was R.
den it was S.
den it was V.
den it was .... EVERYONE.
u b*tch.
feeling this way all over again.
went Amber last nite.
danced till 5am. went fer breakfast.
got home, bathe n sleep.
i hate this life.
so monotonous.
club every week.
c the same person every f*cking week.
i realli dun wanna go.
even meggs say dunt go.
but its a friday nite.
n im alone in the hostel.
it hurts to b without love u noe.

=( wells... my life sucks.
i wish we din have to love.
or live.
in loneliness.
gosh** who made me feel this way.
youu.
bitch.

to meggs::: (still my only darlinkk)
OMG meg, save me if u mite.
i dunt wanna b here animore.
its nt worth the dist or time we wont b seeing ea other.
its too longgggg.
gosh 6 yrs??
a lifetime of pain.
=( i promised u to b good.
but i came here to screw up myself.
i dunno wads come over me.
mayb this shows how much i reallie need n loveeeeee u.
ure always stopping me from doing shit,
n messing up my life.
ure always scolding me fer being notti(or mean to men)
n hitting my hand (like my mummy.gosh imissher) whn my hands do me wrong.
i miss u fer luffing at me at my not-funny jokes.
but u just wanna mk me happy.
i miss u fer being THERe fer me.
fer telling me 'dunt worry lah,god has a plan fer youu'
did u mean to lie? (as well as the others?)
cus im nt overcoming youuuuu.
i miss u fer watchin over me at my worsest moments.
like my sore eyes at ur hse.
like whn i cry n pretend im yawning.
like my pMs while studying fer prelims.
like my tears that fell on ur shoulder.
we promised to move in tog if we're single at 26 or so.
or to b nuns cus we NOE no one wans us.
or to b loved by one another.
n never let another MAN hurt us again.
tho im older. a lil... ure still my bigger sis.
n my angel.